I was diagnosed with Leukemia when i was 16. I didnt know it at the time but i would be needing total body radiation. When meeting with the radiation tech, she clearly explained that there would be a good chance i would not be able to have children. This completely devistated me for weeks, but because i am so stubborn i didnt tell anyone or show my feelings about it.
I had herd about eggs being frozen and used later before i got sick, and when i finally broke down to my mom about how i was feeling i brought it up. At that point in my treatment, if i were to freeze my eggs, it would be a very long time before i could get the TBR and have my bone marrow transplant. I was so done with having cancer that i knew i just had to keep going with the treatment as planned.
I talked to acoupple of my close friends about how i was feeling and they made me feel a little better. They all immediately volunteered to be my surrogate mothers!
I really love them for that.
When it finally got down to going to Sloan-Kettering in NY and actually getting the radiation, i became severley depressed. But ofcourse, because i am so stubborn, i didnt show it. I just cried to myself, quietly at night and reluctantly wentto my TBR 3 times aday for 4 days.
It has now been over a year since my bone marrow transplant and im feeling great! my hair is growing back in the perfect color and it is so thick! I go to MSKCC once a week for blood checks and other maintenance but besides that i am very healthy. Another good thing is that i have met so many older women that are comming back for their yearly check-ups and they have families of their own! weather they froze their eggs, adopted, or whatever! That is very reassuring to me. Also, my faith helps me keep a positive attitude about having my own family one day.