Justin Birckbichler is a fourth grade teacher, testicular cancer survivor and the founder of aBallsySenseofTumor.com
. From being diagnosed in November 2016 at the age of 25, to finishing chemo in January 2017, to being cleared in remission in March, he has been passionate about sharing his story to spread awareness and promote open conversation about men's health. Connect with him on Instagram @aballsysenseoftumor
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March 2: Remission Day - the last of my "cancerversaries
It's been a year
since I made the switch from testicular cancer patient to survivor. While I use survivor as a noun (mainly since it's a lot easier to say that than "I had cancer last year but now I am in remission"), I never say, "I survived cancer." The past tense is too final for me. Instead, l am surviving.
Choosing to find the positive, even when you're not feeling it.
A big tenet in how I approached life before cancer was to maintain a positive mindset. I even hosted weekly meetings at school to share our great moments from our week. When I was given a cancer diagnosis, I decided to do the same. Nurse Jenn even noted it in a card she gave me at the end of chemo, writing, "You were handed a tough regimen, but you were always positive and even when vomiting, you were laughing and making a joke."
Becoming a survivor was a new and equally trying experience. Some days, I was really down in the dumps about how overwhelmed I was feeling about balancing going back to work
and also understanding what I had just faced.
A few months into remission, I remember actually thinking that having cancer was easier than facing life. Immediately, I was horrified by this thought and examined why that it had occurred to me. The answer was obvious: while I was feeling crappy, I got to lie around and watch movies all day and had no responsibility. I took that notion and turned it around. Lying around gets old after a few days. I now had the control and power to make my own choices and choose to do what I wanted. Finding my negative thoughts and turning them into positives is something that has helped me keep my spirits up as I continue through this journey.
Making a commitment to fitness and healthy eating.
Getting back into shape takes work and effort. I was into fitness in college, but dropped the ball once I became a real adult. On chemo, I gained 10 pounds and a honeymoon in Hawaii only added to that. By August 2017, I was at my heaviest I've ever been: 215 pounds. At nearly six feet tall, this is teetering on overweight (and it was definitely not muscle mass that made up the weight). Similar to my approach to my mental health, I knew I had to take control of the situation and make changes. I started shifting to a healthier diet and increasing my activity level. By cooking more whole foods and working out for 30 minutes a few times a week, I've shed nearly 40 pounds since August.
Co-workers had commented that I've definitely lost weight and look good. My goal isn't to just be physically where I was before cancer...I want to be better. I'm grabbing life by the ball(s) and making that happen.
Proving that you have overcome chemo brain and don't want to waste your brain power.
The loss of my mental capabilities due to chemo brain
bothered me a lot, and I was determined to get them back. I eased my way into it, with reading shorter books and working my way up to longer ones. Last night, I finished 11/22/63
, an 850-page Stephen King novel. I highly recommend the book to anyone who likes books about time travel, history or the JFK assassination, but finishing the book represented more to me than just the bragging rights that come along with completing such a long book. This ridiculously thick book was given to me during chemo, and it seemed like an impossible challenge then. Now, I've surpassed that seemingly-impossible challenge (in less than six days) and I'm ready to start on the next book.
Prior to cancer, most of my evenings were spent watching movies, playing video games and endlessly scrolling through social media. Now, you can catch me reading, playing with Rubik's Cubes (current record is just over one minute) and writing. I know what it's like to truly veg out (not by choice), and I don't want to waste that time anymore.
Using your journey as a springboard for something more.
From the beginning, I've been sharing my story
openly and honestly. I feel that it would be a wasted opportunity to not continue to use my journey as a talking point in a larger narrative about men's health, and more recently, mental health. I know my journey has prompted other men to take their health more seriously, and that's an amazing feeling.
If you're facing cancer, share your story (if you're comfortable) before, during, and after. It's cathartic and will help others. If you need support, come check out the monthly App Chat on the Stupid Cancer app
on the second Tuesday of the month at 8:00 PM EST. I hear the moderator is a pretty ballsy guy. (Spoiler - it's me.)
Knowing that you can genuinely say that you have a second shot at life.
At the end of the day, never forget that you stared death in the face. Most of the world doesn't have that experience, but you know what it's truly like to claw your way back from the other side.
You have a second shot at life - don't waste it. These are my thoughts on the matter and what it means to truly be surviving. I've made some dramatic shifts in my life in the past year and have no intention of looking back.
So, in a way, cancer, while you did take Lefty from me, you did do some good in my life. However, I'm still here a year later and you're not. I guess we know who truly had the will to survive.