One of the real frustrations with long, planned hospital stays is that you change your entire routine of life, and you’re really in control of nothing. At the end of a particularly trying day early this week, I tried to just sit and puzzle through what was bothering me so much.
Well, first, all cancer patients are used to the “out of control” feeling. Your own body betrayed you, and your life is in the hands of others. Still, many of us (including articles by other CURE contributors) talk about this duality. There’s Cancer Kevin, doing chemo, radiation, and planning time off from work for “side effects day.” Then there’s still Regular Kevin; husband, dad, boss, neighbor, doing the same old things.