Thanks for writing this article. I am approaching my 5 year anniversary of being cancer free and for some reason I feel acutely aware that the other shoe is about to drop. The fear comes at different times but with a nasty intensity. Can't wait to get off the tamoxifen. Horrible side effects but I'm hoping I can keep it up till my 5 years. One day at a time. Interesting about keeping up appearances when you really feel like burying your head in a pillow and crying. I think there are a lot more sober alcholholics that don't get the pink cloud experience but for me, I'm alive and grateful.