Thank you for giving me permission for all the feelings I am having. 8 years ago I was treated for breast cancer and have been clear ever since. My treatment was simple and did not require chemo. I did not worry about the cancer returning and felt myself cured. Last September I was diagnosed with uterine cancer which was treated with a complete hysterectomy. I required no other treatment and will just be followed by the survivorship program I am already part of, for 5 years. My body is healed from both cancers and life should just go on, no problem. I am having all sorts of underlying emotional problems which I have been pushing down and this post is allowing me to acknowledge them. Part of the emotion is guilt for the feelings because my treatments have been so simple. The word cancer is a heavy word and I have heard it and been treated for it twice now. I have not acknowledged to myself how hard it is to live with that weight. My treatment was not long ago (surgery 12-11) and I am hoping I can get back to where I was with my breast cancer, yes I had it but it is cured. Right now I can be sensitive to any confrontational or difficult situation react with a short temper. This is not a positive direction in life so I am hoping I can get past it. Admitting it here I feel is my first step. I know I am in the stages of grief and need to give myself a break without giving myself a pass. Thanks again for the subject and the forum to speak out.
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